As I struggled to run a 10K today I remembered that I have a Substack account where I come to rant while I share experiences that is for your edification as well as mine if I’m being honest, because I only get some level of clarity as I type.
So, Shebi you people know that I ran a marathon in February? So since then ehn, I’m been chasing metrics and I’ve been allowing myself to get distracted by either using Garmin coach or Runna’s program. Worse part is since the marathon I’ve become friends with more runners and I see that some had a pace that is 2x of mine, and this natural human desire to do better or in some case compete has led to my decline,
Well I won’t exactly call it a decline because I’ve been doing some personal record in terms of speed but you see running long distance 😂, I’ve been struggling mentally, and as I write this, I know it’s because I want to do them at a faster pace but in reality I’m not there yet.
Should I add that I even for a machine to check my weight at home and it has also been a pitfall because instead of just focusing on healthy living, I calibrate my eating habit around what it says I weigh weekly, and because of that I don’t have a healthy living on locked. See intentional man regressing 😂.
Even as I posted a Sunday picture, my anyhow instructor sent a DM saying that I’ve lost all my gains and definition, because i didn’t workout for a month o. All of this is happen to a whole me.
Before I say what I plan on doing about it. I must add that it’s hard to actually chase your goals when the body type you want to fix is what makes you attractive to who is important, now you also have to pitch why you have to ditch the look.
Anyways as I was running, I remembered that my birthday is 3 months and I want to attempt a marathon that day so I have to plan a program around it, which would also involve a better diet.
Today I weigh 100KG, and as I plan to run a marathon on the 22nd of August, I found a new reason to write to you guys, as I’ll be coming with Sunday updates of how the training for the week goes. Hopefully I don’t fuck this up 🙃
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